Holy frigger doodles, where the heck did summer go?? This time next week I'll be back at Mcgill, ready to giv'r for another school year. Am i ready to turn down the suck and turn up the good???? and for anyone who does not know what that saying means, please just think about it, there is no sexual reference to that saying. so please get ur mind out of the gutter. i'm only saying this in context of THAT GUY when i said that to him.. devon his name will remain nameless haha!.. who looked at me like a deer in the headlight, or like he was some huge super fat kid who just got out of fat camp and i was big huge skittel, so obviously he took it the wrong way...creep..haha! But ya, going into my third year, with 2 1/2 more years to go.. whoa craziness!! looking back on it all, so much has changed for me in the last 2 years. well everything has changed.. i feel like i have aged 10 years.. i hope i dont look it, cuz really who wants to look 30 when they're 20??? i mean come on.. look at the people on the OC.. the kids who are in their 20s are playing teenagers with parents who are in their 30s.. like people can't possibly be that hot (HAHA MISHCA BARTON.. WHO WON THE 20 QUESTIONS GAME?!?! YA what what!) ..like a little nuck and tuck here or there has obviously helped their careers.. maybe ill be that old woman who has had so many botox injections that she can no longer show emotion..(don't worry babe.. ill be OH NATURAL for you..hehe) ohhh did anyone see that oprah where they had people on who were addicted to plastic surgery??? scary!! and ohhhhh my doctor.. her name is a matter of fact Dr. Gross, and these days she seems to be living up to her name quite well for a woman in her 70s who has obviously had work down because she constantly has the SUPRISED look on her face.. come to think of it  i think she got her eyebrows painted on.. i kid u not.. and that orange tanned look that never fades.. shes like michael jackson only in reverse.. she goes blacker every year.. but ya.. this is the train of thought that goes on in my mind...its kind of relateable to broken telephone. how the word will start out as banana and it will end up being JUMANGI! i dont know why i just wrote that word.. maybe its because i went to the zoo today..(ehehehe.. i love you..hehehe) but say it with enthusiasm.. come on u can do it.. go to a room where u are alone if you have to.. and just say it with all that u can.. JUMANGI! it puts a smile on anyone's face!  ohhhh now i know what ill be watching later on tonight... JUMANGI! hahah this can be like in Pee Wee's playhouse.. how every time someone says the word JUMANGI..just scream.. do the ever so famous Pee Wee Hermon laugh.. HAAHHAAAAAAA! it would be more effective if u could actually hear me do it.. but just use your imagination..

Ya so as i mentioned before, i went to the zoo today with my baby!!! haha yes my 6 month old baby is doing well and thanks to all those who have sent their best wishes.. HAHA KIDDING! come on can u really see me having a kid now when i probably get more excited about getting a toy in a happy meal than a 5 year old does?? but come to think of it.. i dont think that's something that's ever going to change about me.. BUT YA zoo with james!!! (pssssstt I LOVE YOU) it was awesome.. as soon as we got their it started to pour.. so of course us being the two hottest people ever who are so vain about our looks.. HAHAHAH YA RIGHT.. we hid underneathe this thingy for about 20 mintues.. but then.. we spotted them.. the ponchos with the animals on them.. that's right people.. if u think u can't get any cooler by just wearing a poncho.. think again.. try wearing one with animals on them SOOOOOOOO WICKED AWESOME! like straight from the fashion runways of chic Paris and Milan, James and I strutted our stuff in our $4 ponchos.. so ya we started out on our SAFARRRRIII!! hahaha ya big nerd right here.. it was sooooooooooo much fun! u think that the rain would get people down... NOOOO not us!! that's one of the things i love about him the most.. we can have fun no matter what ...hhehehe awwwww.. now that you're all done gagging.. the most wicked awesome animal that we saw were the orangutangs.. ok this one huge MOFO..like wow.. his name should be like mufasa.. because that sounds like a name that a huge big mofo from the jungle should have.. his face was UNREAL! and to my happiness.. there were baby animals EVERYWHERE. SOOOOOOOO CUTE!!!!!! their cute little faces.. even when they're relieving themselves right in front of you .. you're just like wooowwww.. it was awesome! i love going to the zoo and being able to do that with the person you love the most, MORE THAN ANYTHING IN THIS WORLD and knowing they're (hopefully) having as much fun as you are.. is THE BEST feeling EVER!

 I gotta say, that looking back on this summer, it was probably THE BEST summer i have ever had, all thanks to a special someone. OMG i'm going to be such a girl and gush and gush about him. And i can just see it now, if you're reading this, which you probably are, you're going to be doing that "oh god" when you say that ever so cutely and you smile embaressingly (sorry for any spelling mistakes i made in that sentence babe!)

*WARNING: if you a person who becomes queasy easily, i suggest that you should not read this, and i will not be responsible for what happens when you read about my UNDENYING LOVE hehehe* 

 James, you are the one for me.You make me laugh until my tummy is sore, you make me smile until my cheeks hurt. I lose myself in your crystal blue eyes everytime i stare right into them, and often times you may ask what I'm thinking about.. and it's just about how much i love you. You are the one that i lean on, that i share everything with, you are my strength, you are my happiness, and in just two words you are...my destiny, you have made my dreams come true because you are everything, everything my heart could ever imagine. You are my best friend, you are my man, you are THE ONE. So many memories we have made together, and will continue to make for the rest of our lives. From the first time i saw you, there was something, i couldn't quite put my finger on it, but it was just different, everything was different from anything that i have ever experience with anyone else. and i loved it. the instant connection, it was just like we were made for eachother. i know i endlessly tell you this, but i love you, and i am not embarressed for all you other people to know because who should be embarressed when they have found the person that they're going to spend the rest of their life with??? YAYA WHAT WHAT! ehehhee.. baby i love you. i could go on and on about just how utterly amazing i think you are..and you know i could!! just want u to have something u can look back and read every so often.. just so you won't ever forget.... KEEP ON THE LOOKOUT!! HA!